I did not want to make this strictly a weight loss blog. I refuse to let my weight define who I am because I’m so much more than that. However, being the “husky” kid or the chunky girl is how I’ve been my entire life. I have to tell you, I hate that label. (I honestly think the word “fat” is an evil word!) Maybe that’s why I’ve spent lots of time defining my style, applying make-up, straightening my hair, and accessorizing my outfits with the cutest shoes, necklaces, and purses. Maybe that has unconsciously been my way of “hiding” the fat? I don’t know. All I do know, is I hate being the fat one. I hate having to fight this battle every single minute of my life.
There has not been one defining moment in my life where I said, “that’s it; I’m making a change and loosing this weight!” There have been multiple defining moments! I most recently decided for the umpteenth time this past June to make that shift, again. This time was different though. I didn’t rush. I didn’t have high expectations. I made serious life style changes. I think I’m finally getting that statement now. I still have a long journey ahead of me but I’m proud that I’ve lost 36 lbs, over 10 inches, and can finally wear SATIN! LOL – Yes, that has been one of my “goals.” All the while, I still get my icing on a spoon and my Friday night shrimp egg foo yung. Life can be great, if you let it.
This is the most recent before and after picture from 2009. The first picture was taken in June right before my niece’s first ballet recital. This was the day before I made the shift, again. The after picture was taken 6 months later in December at my company holiday party. That my lovelies, is a real life satin dress. I never told anyone this but I actually cried in the dressing room when it fit. I always doubt myself and am learning to just try new things on!
My weight will not define who I am, but it is part of my story and my journey. I want to share my experiences, my challenges, my pains, and my successes with you. I figure if I was put on this planet to be the husky kid all these years, I might as well help others. I have never shared my weight with the world. I have never shared my story. The true and raw story of how my weight has impacted my life. I am here today to tell you, I’m now an open book.
I’m still fighting the fight. That will never stop. I still need to loose another 40 lbs or so to be at my goal. I will do this. All the while, looking fabulous and getting rid of those pants that are now 2 sizes too big! Never, ever, hold off on shopping ladies. If you do not feel fabulous during this journey, you will not feel good about yourself. I may have always been the “fat” friend, but I was always fierce, fashionable, and fabulous. Irresistibly ME. So are you!
How are you fighting the fight?
“Each of us has much more hidden inside us than we have had a chance to explore. Unless we create an environment that enables us to discover the limits of our potential, we will never know what we have inside of us.”~Muhammad Yunus~