Well, friends my surgery is officially happening in less than 24 hours! By noon tomorrow I’ll be in la-la land while the surgeons are hard at work removing my diseased gallbladder.

How Am I Feeling?

Oddly enough I’m not feeling too nervous or anxious. Although the Ativan I just took may be helping ๐Ÿ˜‰ Here’s hoping it takes the edge off. I’ve talked to all my family tonight and will have an army waiting for me in the recovery room. That’s just how we roll lol. Oh and you know I bought a new “comfy” outfit for the hospital, sequins included. Only me lol

What I’ve been thinking about the past few days is around weight loss / weight gain. For the past month, I’ve had to throw my healthy routine out the window and just focus on what I could eat that wouldn’t send my gallbladder screaming. That’s been soups, crackers, rice cakes, rice, apple juice, and did I mention rice? Beh.

Um yea. Boring city. It’s made me furious at times because it’s cut into my social life. No dinners out with the husband, no dates with my friends, no dinners with the parents. Nothing. I’m BORED!!!! Humans really spend a lot of time together, either eating or drinking lol.

Well, it got me thinking and fearing gaining weight post-op. I’ve been deprived of everything I want (even my “irresistible” salad I’m always posting). I don’t want to come out of this and head down that dark, destructive path of weight gain and depression. Been there. Done that. I’m not going back! EVER!

I don’t want to feel miserable and fat when it’s 100 degrees out here in a a few months. I want to put on a pair of shorts and feel good in them. I want to keep up my momentum and lose my last 50 lbs. I want to get my body toned and in the best shape of my life. I don’t want to turn to a flabby mess.

Yes, this overwhelms me a bit and scares me. BUT, it also empowers me because I’m in charge of which direction I take. I’ve been feeling so happy and grateful lately. ย I really do love my life and have so many things I want to do when I’m healthy again. It’s made me realize to not take anything for granted.

I chose to be in control of the food and will not let the food control me! Here’s to taking out that diseased gallbladder and leaving all the bad habits behind with it!ย 

I’ll be keeping you updated on Facebook,ย Instagram and Twitter from my phone while I recover. It might take me longer than normal to reply, but I will ๐Ÿ™‚

“To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one’s family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one’s own mind. If a man can control his mind he can find the way to Enlightenment, and all wisdom and virtue will naturally come to him.”ย ~Buddha~