There’s a bad habit I’ve had all these years in my weight loss journey. If I have a “bad” eating day or two or three, I decide that I can’t mentally face the number on the scale. I work up this entire scheme in my head about how I’ve gained back ALL the weight I’ve worked so hard to lose by a couple of days of negligent eating. As if a couple of cupcakes or a cheeseburger WITH fries is going to murder all the work I’ve already put in. I tell myself that I’ll skip the scale this week and work extra hard next week so that I’ll definitely see a loss.
Then the next week’s weigh in comes around and I end up telling myself the same story because now that I wasn’t accountable to the scale, I’ve totally fallen off the wagon.
Then, 2 weeks go by with no accountability. The story in my head really starts to build momentum. I’ve completely convinced myself that I’m gaining it all back and that once again you’re going to show the world you’re a failure and can’t stick to your plans.
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had this dialogue in my head over the years. In fact I was doing it again up until last night! I realized that once again I’ve missed 2 full weeks of weigh ins. That is not acceptable! So I made a decision yesterday that I would jump back on the horse this morning with my Wednesday Weigh Ins and blog about it, no matter what.
I had totally convinced myself that I was back in the 230’s after 2 weeks. I just knew it.
Boy was I wrong when I saw the number today. I actually screamed out loud and scared my Chihuahua, Chuy!
The scale read 221.7, which is a 3.8 loss since my last weigh in. Getting out of the 220’s was my next mini-goal and I’m so close I can taste it! I’m aiming to see ONEderland in 2014. I don’t want to ring in 2015 knowing that I weigh over 200 lbs. I know that I can knock out these 21 pounds in 2 months as long as I stay focused and centered on my goal.
I had not weighed in since the day before my 5K. I am beyond grateful for this loss. It made me realize that the hardest part sometimes is just facing the cold hard truth. The number on that scale has such power over us but it shouldn’t. Even if my weight was up, I need to know that so I can do what I need to do to keep fighting. In the past I might have stopped all together for the next few months. Then after some time of course the scale is going to be up! NOT this time. I will not quit. I will not stop. The rewards outweigh the struggle. Every. Single. Time
This is a huge reminder to myself and to you reading this, don’t be afraid to face the scale. No matter how much you went over your points or how many extra cupcakes you eat the best thing you can do is stay accountable and keep fighting!
PS – If you are looking for a low point but sweet dessert idea, check out my Caramel Cinnamon Puffs for 3 Points each!
“You never find yourself until you face the truth.”