This is my mantra for 2012 . . .
Change the changeable, accept the unchangeable, and remove yourself from the unacceptable.”
I’ve now spent almost an entire year dwelling on the past and how things should’ve been. Yes, things didn’t go the way I planned and it’s time to accept that.
I gained the weight back. I accept I can’t change that I gained it. Things happened in my life and I turned to food. I’m learning coping skills now that I never had before. I never even realized that food was always my “drug” of choice. I have to forgive myself and treat myself with respect and understanding. I didn’t know any better…then.
However, I can change how I deal with it NOW. I can lose the weight again. I can change my way of thinking. I can choose this. Nobody else. I have the power to make every single day my own. Only I can control what I put in my mouth. That is refreshing to think of it in that way! I can control this “disease.” It will no longer control me.
I accept that I went through depression this year over a couple of different life issues. As a result, I gained the weight and it only made me more depressed. When you are depressed you can’t necessarily chose happiness, but you can somehow find the strength and courage to ask for help and work towards feeling better again. I’m proud of myself for recognizing it, asking for help, and committing to change.
If people, places, or situations don’t fit in with my new goals, I will remove myself. I will choose to not tolerate the unacceptable.
I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired and I’m ready to bring ME back. I’m ready to start living again, and not just existing…or surviving.
I want my spirit back. I want my sparkle again. I’m determined to make that happen. I CHOOSE to make it happen.
What do you choose?