Will I ever stop binge eating? Will this cycle ever end? This post and podcast is raw and real. I’m dishing my feelings about binge eating, weight loss, and my body image journey.
Let’s begin with a food diary from Monday.
- Egg Beaters with Laughing Cow Cheese
- Turkey Bacon
- A sprinkle of shredded cheese
- A homemade chicken sandwich with fat-free cheese
- Baked waffle fries
- A bag of mini Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups
- A few bites of cake
- 2 Bacardi & Diet Cokes at a networking event
- Caprese Salad
- 5 Chicken Bites
Leaves event with my stomach actually growling after eating “healthy” food.
Stops at McDonald’s
- 2 Cheeseburger meal with medium fries plus a McChicken
I purposely wanted to order a ton of food at McDonalds to make myself feel disgusting so that I could “start over” today. I wanted to eat to the point of feeling gross. It’s a sick cycle. I still binge eat. I still struggle with food. I think that I’ll always struggle with food.
I had a call with my WW coach yesterday. I told her that I’m off track.
Honestly, I’m just so sick of all of this. I’m tired of having to worry about what I eat, how much I weigh, and how much weight I’ll gain if I try to just eat what I want. I’ll never be able to eat whatever I want.
I’m at a point right now in my life where I’m just trying to survive and keep my nose above water. The last thing I honestly give a shit about is trying to “watch what I eat.”
I’m sick and tired of having to be like this. I’m sick and tired of not being able to eat a bag of candy and bounce right back.
I don’t feel that sense of urgency to keep losing weight. Even though I know I’ll go back to a very dark place if I gain a shit ton of weight. I just can’t afford to let depression take me under right now.
I see the pics of myself and I’m like “ehh” I look pretty good considering how much I’ve been eating lately. Wait , what?
I feel good in my own skin most days. I guess that’s the work I’ve done on my confidence and body image through my #irresistibleyou framework. That’s a GOOD thing.
Food is never going to be easy for me. This journey is SO complicated. That’s what I’m talking about in this week’s podcast. I can say it better than I can write it, so go give this week’s episode a listen!
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