I’ve been feeling like this for weeks. I don’t think I even know how to explain it. I guess if you’ve been through it you might understand it…I dunno.
I consider my brain to be on the creative side. I get paid to write and design. That means I have to come up with creative ideas from scratch, make sense, of them, make them pretty, and you know the rest. Whether it’s in my instructional design projects or in my blogging, it’s the same concepts.
My #1 dream is to be 100% self-employed as a blogger. Right now, it’s bringing in a small part-time income. Small.
I feel a constant panic and anxiety that it’s not happening fast enough.
So, my brain is always racing thinking of other ways to “make it” faster.
I know I have the brains and business sense to have done this like yesterday. Then, why am I not there yet?
I feel like I have all these ideas that are going to take me to the next level but I just can’t get them out of my brain. It’s like there’s a creative blockage in my brain. Literally. It actually hurts.
If you are the creative type and you get into a creativity block, it’s actually painful. It sucks.
I swear it’s probably because my brain is clogged with a million other thoughts from every day life and thoughts from my full-time job.
I used to stay up until 4am working on my business. Then, I started gaining weight and it effected my overall health. So, you trade one thing for another, right?
It’s so frustrating.
What do you do with the creative thoughts won’t come? Because you sure as shit can’t force them.
PS – Good thing I see my therapist today. LOL
“Creativity is essentially a lonely art. An even lonelier struggle. To some a blessing. To others a curse. It is in reality the ability to reach inside yourself and drag forth from your very soul an idea.”
~Lou Dorfsman ~