Hello doll face! Did you miss me?! I’m a day late with my weekly weigh in. So, let’s get right into it.

This week I’m down .5 of a pound. I thought for sure I’d be out of the 230’s this week based on last week’s weigh in but I’m still happy with this loss.

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Overall I did really good and stayed on plan until Sunday night when I had a cheat meal at Sonic. As in Double Cheeseburger Combo cheat meal. Ugh.  I would have been fine if I just stopped there but I ended up having a crappy Monday and Monday turned into one big cheat day. I didn’t go grocery shopping like I normally do which set me up for failure. Lesson learned.

I’m still really happy with my weight loss this week because starting on Monday it was that time of month and I’ve had a migraine every day since. I get really strong cravings and never seem to feel full during that time no matter what I eat! It’s passed now and I feel 100% better!

I got in a total of 31 activity points which I’m really proud of! We even went for a 12 mile bike ride earlier this week  which was relaxing and fun!

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Monthly Check Up

I had my first monthly checkup with the doctor since I started the medical weight loss program. I wanted to share a few things that we discussed yesterday.

  • I’m down 10 lbs since my first visit last month. Woo Hoo!
  • I’ve lost 2 inches off my waist!
  • I’ve dropped a point on the BMI scale. I really don’t agree with BMI because there’s so many other factors besides just height and weight that should be considered but thought I would mention it.

I got my blood work back which the doctor reviewed in detail with me. One of my concerns was a possible thyroid condition but the blood work came back normal for that. Actually, all of my levels are in the normal range! That said, I’m really grateful that I’m putting my health first because while I’m in the normal range, I’m not far off from being in the area of concern. For example, my blood sugar was 84 and once it hits 90 (fasting) there’s room for concern. My cholesterol was 189 and 200 is when they raise the red flag. I know that if I continue down an unhealthy path, those weight induced diseases will catch up to me and I refuse to let that happen!

I’m also Vitamin D deficient so I have a RX I need to take for that. Who knew?!

Final Words . . .

Weight loss is tough. It’s a daily battle with yourself to make the right choices.  It’s usually never a straight path to success. Yoyo dieting is emotionally draining. I know one thing for sure and it’s that I’m DONE living like this. It’s so hard to re-lose the weight you know you busted your ass to lose already. Many days I just feel like I’m backtracking to get back where I was.  I have to shut off that voice in my brain that keeps saying, “OMG, big deal you’ve already lost this weight once, twice, or even 3 times!” It is a big deal if you’re still here in the arena fighting for your life. Keep fighting! Even if this is your 3rd, 4th, or 5th time losing the same weight! On that note, I’d like to leave you with this quote,

"You Don’t Drown by Falling in Water; You Drown by Staying There"

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Are you ready for the weekend? I’ve got a list of “irresistible links” here for you to check out. Oh and be sure to check out my weekly weigh in post. 

♥ A list of 25 places to shop for Plus Size Swimwear from the Curvy Fashionista.

♥ Five Truths About Plus Size Fashion

♥ Don’t believe those pics of celebs that you see in magazines! This example of Mariah Carey proves my point.

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Stay Fluffy, Ladies. A beautiful post.

♥ Cover Models Speak: What Is Curvy Confidence?

♥ Amazing weight loss story! Couple Loses 280 Pounds After Hurtful Comment from Family

♥ Skinny Girl’ Bethenny Frankel Jeered for Posing in Kid’s Tiny PJs. This story has caused quite a stir. What are your thoughts?

Have an Irresistible weekend! xoxo

“Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.”
Buddha

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I got on the scale this morning for my weekly weigh in as I usually do and gasped when I saw the number.

230.8

That’s right. I lost 3.2 lbs from last week! I actually had to weigh myself 3 more times to make sure that was accurate and it was. I also hit my 5% weight loss goal and went down one point for my daily allowance.

I have to admit it was a bit emotional for a few seconds. I finally feel back in control of my body, my choices, and my health. In this crazy world, this is really all we can control. I will never allow myself to let food control my life again and make me feel miserable and out of control. NEVER!

Weekly Weigh In

I’ve contemplated in my head over and over again why I’ve gained and lost weight so many times. I’m starting to think it’s to teach me a lesson about appreciating my body. All the times I lost weight, I was never satisfied. All I could still see was the 250 lb fat girl I had become. It’s hard to shake the mental image once you’ve lived through it. I look back at pics of myself and think “what was wrong with you?! you looked amazing!” Yes, I was still overweight but not “fat.” Does that make sense? This time around I’m going to be nicer to myself through this process.

What I Did Differently

I looked back over my tracker from last week to see how I had such a successful week. As promised in last week’s weigh in, I cut out the Arnold bread for breakfast and lunch. I’ve been sticking to just egg beaters with a laughing cow cheese wedge for breakfast and a grilled chicken salad for lunch. I’ve been trying to only eat carbs during dinner. That seems to have always worked best for my body when I eat like that. I don’t mind eating the same meals every day because I don’t have to think about it.

My Current Workout Routine

I also kicked it up at the gym this week. Let me tell you . . . I’m addicted to kickboxing! I’ve always loved this as a form of cardio. It works out your ENTIRE body so it burns fat and sculpts your muscles at the same time. I’ve been doing the Jillian Michaels Kickboxing DVD and doing my own intervals with our boxing bag. My husband and I have our own little gym in the garage so there’s no excuses!  Here’s what my daily workouts look like lately:

  • 20 – 30 minutes on the treadmill at 3.0 or higher
  • 10-15 minutes of free weights (I’ve been focusing on my arms)
  • 20-30 minutes of kickboxing
  • Walking Chuy around the neighborhood as a cool down

Goals for Next Week and Beyond

My next mini goal is to get out of the 230’s for good which I know will happen by next week. The goal from there is to blast through the 220’s. From there, I can really see the light again. That’s only another 20 pounds to put me back in onederland! It finally seems doable.

“Nothing in the world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty… I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well.”
~Theodore Roosevelt~

How was your week?

 

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Are you ready for the weekend? I’ve got a list of “irresistible links” here for you to check out. Oh and be sure to check out my weekly weigh in post. 

♥ J Crew has introduced a new size 000 for women. What is that exactly? They say it’s for women with a 23 inch waist. They say it’s due to demands for the size but it’s funny that these major brands don’t do the same for plus sizes!

♥ I don’t owe you perfection! My body my rules: Curvy Huma Qureshi slams hour-glass body image in new Femina cover. I never knew who she was until now but she’s absolutely stunning! Go girl!

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Emoji Yoga. Is this seriously a thing?

I Wore a Bikini and Nothing Happened. What do you think of this story? Would you be brave enough to wear a bikini even though your body isn’t “perfect” according to society’s stick and twisted standards?

♥ From the Curvy Fashionista, Five Places to Shop For Full Figured Bras.

No, My Boyfriend Isn’t “Settling” For A Plus-Size Girl from The Plus Size Princess.

What exactly is plus size? Plus size isn’t one size fits all and this post proves that!

♥ Remember Man Versus Food? Well the host, Adam Richman is back with a new show but I will NOT be watching after reading about his vile comments on Instagram.

♥ Why the naked pics of Prince Fielder disgust me and it’s not what you are thinking. 

♥  Do You Feel Stuck, Overwhelmed, and Dissatisfied? Then make sure to read this!

Have an Irresistible weekend! xoxo

“You cannot be an attractive and life-changing presence to some people without being a joke or an embarrassment to others. You simply can’t. You have to be controversial to succeed.”
~Mark Manson~

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Hello! I’m back with this week’s weigh in.

Weekly Weigh In 7.10.14

I lost .7 this week for a total of 11 lbs lost.  That’s almost a pound, right? I’ll take it. I didn’t get in as many workouts as I wanted to and was a bit off my eating schedule with the July 4th holiday and all.

This week I’m going back to eating a big ole’ salad for lunch every day. I’ve been eating a Boca Chickin sandwich on Arnold bread every day for a few months now. I’m trying to find ways to cut out the carbs where I can.

I’ve just been feeling a bit burnt-out with life in general. I heard a commercial the other day that said,

“When’s the last time you did something for the first time?”

That really resonated with me. Things just don’t feel exciting anymore. Is that just part of growing up? Don’t get me wrong, routine is good and I hate change anyways. It just seems like there’s nothing new or exciting to do. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that everything outside of work revolves around socializing with food or drinks. When you are trying to watch your diet, it takes away the fun of just letting go.

I’ve even been in a slump with my blogging career and that’s my creative outlet. I’m just letting it happen and going through the motions. I’ve found that you can’t force creativity when you’re going through this. I’m sure it will pass.

How was your week?

“Boredom is the root of all evil – the despairing refusal to be oneself.”

~Soren Kierkegaard~

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Let’s cut right to the chase.

This week I’m down a total of 4.6 lbs which puts me at 234.7 lbs. I have FINALLY  hit the 10 lb mark!

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Like I mentioned in my post yesterday, going to the doctor has restored my faith and hope in this process. It’s obviously working with the new medication. I just want to point out that my diet and exercise has not and will not change. My RX are not in lieu of sticking to my daily points allowance and getting in daily workouts. I’m taking them because diet and exercise alone was NOT working for me.

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I refer to each 10 pounds as a decade. The 240’s are a decade, the 230’s, 220’s, etc. I call my current weight the “safe zone” from the 240’s. Why? Well, you know how you fluctuate a few pounds throughout the day? For example, if you weigh 238 lbs in the morning, you might weigh 240 at night or after a workout. I feel like once you get below 235 you are in the safe zone! I have NO desire to EVER see 240 for the rest of my life. NEVER again. My next mini goal is to get out of the 230’s decade.

I’m actually looking forward to my work out tonight. Never thought I’d say that!

Remember, It’s a process and a journey. Don’t ever give up!

Leave a comment below and let me know how you did this week!

“I’ve come to believe that all my past failure and frustration were actually laying the foundation for the understandings that have created the new level of living I now enjoy.” ~Anthony Robbins~

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Last week in my weekly weigh in I posted about how frustrated I was with my lack of weight loss. Earlier this year I tried to go the “all natural” route without taking any medications to see if I could do it alone. I gave it my all and despite my best efforts the weight just won’t budge this time around.

I went to the doctor last Thursday and I wanted to fill you in on what’s going on.

I’m still on Weight Watchers and tracking all of my points. This program works best for me in terms of “diet” because I need the accountability for portion control. I’m just trying to eat less carbs and more protein.

Weight Loss RX

The doctor did a full EKG to ensure my heart is healthy and everything came back normal. My blood pressure is also perfect. I had blood work done and I’ll get the results later this week. One of my concerns is that perhaps there’s something wrong with my thyroid. I remember a few years back I was borderline for thyroid issues.

The doctor prescribed three medications for me:

  • Metformin
  • Phentermine
  • Maxzide

I was prescribed Metformin because my doctor thinks that I may be insulin resistant. This can cause you to not lose weight with diet and exercise alone. I won’t know for sure until the results of my blood work come back. There’s an informative article about insulin resistance at BodyBuilding.com if you are curious about learning more.

“Insulin has a powerful ability to prevent fat breakdown by its anabolic (rebuilding) properties.”

She also recommend going back on Phentermine, which is an appetite suppressant. The phentermine helps to control my cravings and thoughts about food. It’s not intended to be taken long term but it’s helping me focus on the task at hand.

Maxzide is a water pill or diuretic. It helps to release excess fluid that the body is retaining. It’s not something I have to take every day but more on an as needed basis.

Supplements

In addition to the RX medications, I’m also on a supplement regimen that includes the following:

  • Daily Multi-Vitamin
  • Omega Fish Oil
  • Chromium
  • B12 Injections

The multi-vitamin and omega fish oil is pretty straight forward. According to Web MD,

“Chromium helps to move blood sugar (glucose) from the bloodstream into the cells to be used as energy and to turn fats, carbohydrates, and proteins into energy.”

The doctor said that if I’m indeed insulin resistant the Chrorium will help me with this. I’m also doing a weekly B12 injection to help with energy levels.

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Do What YOU Gotta Do!

I know that seems like a lot and it is. At first I didn’t want to blog about this because I was worried about what people may think. Then I thought long and hard about it and I really don’t care what anyone thinks about MY journey! I’ve heard people say that medical weight loss is the “easy’ way out. For me, it’s not. None of this is easy for me. I feel like a prisoner in my own body that so desperately wants to escape. I feel like no matter what I do, the weight just sticks to me and won’t go away.

I had started to lose all hope that I’ll ever feel good in my own skin. In less than a week I can tell you that I’m already down almost 5 lbs! Do you know how much this has restored my hope in the process but more importantly in myself? I’ve been going HARD at the gym and turning my back to temptations. I need this. I deserve this.  I will get this.

Don’t worry about what people think or say. This is your journey and only your journey. Nobody else can do it for you. You do what works for your body. If it stops working then reevaluate your plan and try something else. Do what ever you have to do for YOU!

“Do what you gotta do so you can do what you wanna do.”
~Denzel Washington~

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Are you ready for the weekend? This week flew by! I’m meeting an old friend for dinner tonight and then going to the Latin Fest to see one my favorite merengue bands. Here are a few links for your weekend reading! Be sure to check out my weekly weigh in post.

Oh Hello Weekend

♥ From Health is the New Skinny, What is a Real Woman?

♥ The Plus-Size Industry Is On The Verge Of A Revolution

♥ Red, White & Blue Plus Size Fashion For A Patriotic 4th Of July

♥ This Gospel Singer Lost Major Weight, While Keeping Her Voluptuous Figure.

Melissa McCarthy is launching a plus size fashion line!

“When I go shopping, most of the time I’m disappointed,” she says.

Citris Basil Mojito Pops from SkinnyTaste! These look irresistible for summer time!

♥ Love this outfit from Simply Marlena!

Have an Irresistible weekend! xoxo

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I haven’t posted my weekly weigh in in two weeks. It’s not because I haven’t been weighing in because I have. It’s because of my frustration with my progress. Or lack thereof.

Weekly Weigh In Results

I’ve been really angry about my weigh ins given how much work I’ve been putting into my weight loss efforts. For almost 2 months now, I’ve teetered tottered around the same weight and have barely lost a total of 6 lbs. Even though I’ve ALWAYS struggled with my weight, it’s never been this hard or this frustrating. On top of that I’m doing things now that I never used to do, consistently. For example:

  • I weigh and measure every single meal AND track it in my Weight Watchers journal. Even on the weekends!
  • I don’t eat out or order take-out multiple times a week. We usually eat out like once (maybe twice) a week.
  • When we do eat out, I’m making really good choices. Even my husband noticed that I’ve been consistent with that!
  • I don’t go out drinking every single weekend at the club or bar. It’s rare that I even have a drink!
  • Since I don’t go clubbing, I’m not eating those 4th meals at 3am.
  • I don’t binge on icing and cupcakes.
  • I haven’t been binging on anything!
  • I wake up early and work out every single week day.
  • I meal plan and prep my groceries for the week.

I’m doing ALL the right things and doing them consistently. However, the weight is stuck to my body like glitter in glue. I just don’t get it.

I’ve been frustrated and annoyed that I didn’t even want to blog. That’s a double edged sword because blogging is therapeutic to me. I need to share this story with you guys because I know I’m not the only one going through this.

I even started researching weight loss surgery you guys. SURGERY. What the what?! I don’t want surgery but I’ve felt so hopeless lately. Trust me, this is a LAST resort but I’m not opposed to it.

I’ve considered going back to the doctor to do medically supervised weight loss. It’s worked in the past. I feel like something is wrong with my body ever since my gallbladder was removed. Before it was removed, I was on a roll losing weight. I felt amazing and then BAM!

I honestly can’t even explain how I  gained these 40 lbs since last year. I wasn’t depressed. I wasn’t going nuts with binging. I just don’t get it. I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired!

I promised myself I would go back to basics without any medication and see if I could lose the weight on my own. I’ve been trying this for the past six months and NOTHING is working for me. So, I made a decision to see a bariatric doctor tomorrow morning to discuss my options at this point for non-surgical weight loss. Something has to be wrong for me to be struggling this much.

I’ll be sure to fill you in with how that appointment goes!

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I just want you to know if you’re going through this, don’t give up hope. I’m not giving up. I’m just looking into other options. If plan A doesn’t work, move on to plan B . . . and sometimes we end up at plan Z. Who cares as long as you’re still in the game and willing to give it your all! xoxo

“When defeat comes, accept it as a signal that your plans are not sound, rebuild those plans, and set sail once more toward your coveted goal.”
~Napoleon Hill~

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Happy Father’s Day weekend! No, I didn’t post a weekly weigh in this week in case you are wondering. I should have posted why but I was all kinds of negative this week with some things that are going on. The scale didn’t help because it was up and I honestly don’t under stand why. I’m so frustrated with busting my ass, eating small portions but not seeing the payoff. I’m highly considering getting some kind of medical professional to intervene but I don’t even know what that would mean. Do I need surgery? Do I NEED to be on some kind of pills? See what I mean? I’m just frustrated with that and life at the moment and really didn’t feel like blogging about it. Anyways. I’m hoping for a better week, so stay tuned. Until then, here are some Irresistible Links to read.

♥ In case you missed it, be sure to check out my Skinny Piña Colada recipe on the blog!

♥ This Single Minute Of Jim Carrey’s Speech May Change Your Life Forever.

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♥ 10+ Reasons I Love My Ugly Body. I think all of us that have lost or need to lose a significant amount of weight can totally relate to this. I once knew a girl that didn’t want to shed any pounds (Even though her doctor said she had to) because it would make her look “old” by losing the fat in her cheeks.

♥  Tim Gunn Wants An Entire Season Of ‘Project Runway’ To Feature Plus Size Models. Oh really? Now, he’s pro-plus size? <eye roll>

♥ Loving this floral dress from Simply Marlena.

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♥ Plus-Size Models Reimagine the Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Issue Cover. winning!

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♥ Only in Japan. Store Sells Clothing in Skinny, Fat, and Jumbo Sizes. Seriously.

“Japanese lawmakers set a maximum waistline size for people ages 40 and over: 35.4 inches for women and 33.5 inches for men. Per the country’s health care coverage, employees undergo yearly checkups and those who don’t meet the waistline requirements are sent to health counseling.

♥  25 Plus-Size Fashion Bloggers That Are Changing The Game

♥  This Film Exposes the Bitter Truth About Sugar and America’s Obesity Problem. Wow!

Have an Irresistible weekend! xoxo

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